June 11th 2015 was the day that changed my life forever. I had a heart attack and although the symptoms were very ‘woman’ specific I tried really hard to not believe it was happening to me. I was driving home from work where I had to tell them that I would be off for a few more days because 2 weeks earlier I had had a bike accident that had caused a concussion. I was about 4 minutes away from my driveway and my left arm started to hurt and I couldn’t hold the steering wheel with that hand. I thought it was something to do with my bike accident but before I reached the driveway the pain in between my shoulder blades was making it hard to breathe. Guess what – I was having a heart attack. I called 911 and they took me to emergency. By the time I reached emergency all symptoms were gone so they were like ‘I am sorry, you didn’t have a heart attack’ but because of the bike accident 2 weeks previously they decided to do some more tests. Four hours later the doctor comes back into the room and says ‘I have good news and bad news, first good news, you did have a heart attack and you are still having a heart symptoms and we found it, the bad news is that you had a heart attack and you are still having symptoms so we need to find out what is going on’. After an angiogram they discovered I have a rare condition called Spontaneous Cardiac Arterial Dissection – SCAD for short. This is where the inside of the vessel in my heart is cracking and pieces are dropping down and cause a block, this block then causes a heart attack. Since that day I have these ‘heart attacks’ that we call episodes almost every day.
Living with a heart condition that could be fatal at any moment is hard! I am an optimistic, positive person and so each and every day I get up and thank God that I am up and breathing and move forward to my day. I have no expectations, no thoughts of dread or fear and try to be as positive as possible.
As I continue with this blog you will learn how I have moved my life forward and all about my good and bad days. Feel free to ask questions or get in touch if you need someone to chat about it.
Time goes by so fast! My new grand-daughter is 6 months already and here is what I have learned as a new grandparent. First is that being even a little bit away is hard. So she lives an hour and a half away if we hit the lights on the hi way all green. If we have to stop it is more like 2 hours driving each way. We try to go and see her every two weeks but after Christmas we got sick, then they got sick so it was almost 6 weeks since we saw her and guess what, she made strange. She cried for almost an hour and would not even look at us, it broke my heart!
Second thing that I have learned is that although I have many good thoughts on what is right and wrong, you have to hold your tongue and only give advice when asked. I know the debate on shots is huge out there, there are the ones that will go and get shots right away and those that don’t want to give shots at all. I am one that goes with the give them all the help that is available so if shots will help boost their immunity then do it. That is not the way my daughter-in-law thinks, so holding my tongue on that one.
Third thing is that no matter how many baby pictures I look at of other babies my grand-daughter is the cutest of them all! She is gorgeous!! Looks just like her daddy did and has the biggest most beautiful eyes, just like he did. They take you in and she stares you down waiting to see what you will do next. Grandpa loves to make her smile so he is goofy and loud and often does quite the opposite.
I promise as a new grandparent that I will continue to have some great thoughts and hopefully be able to be the best grandma around.
Normally we don’t get much of winter. A few days where we have below zero with a wind or rain but rarely do we get any snow. This past week we had snow for 5 days, 3 of those days it did not stick so just large beautiful flakes coming down but nothing on the ground then it started to stay. I love it when everything is white and wintery outside. It is great when everyone has to stay inside because the roads are too treacherous to travel. This winter storm did not cause too much of that, the roads were ok and everyone was at work or out shopping or just out because of the snow.
Now, it is gone we had some rain and then some sun and now it is all gone. The sun is shining and the wind is blowing just enough to not be cold, the water is glistening with the sunbeams. It is the start of flower count and so the buds will be popping out and everyone will be looking for them as winter is gone and spring is just around the corner, it is a good day!
I would like to take some time and write about things that are important to me. First thing is being a wife to a wonderful guy, he is a geek and a very good one, but doesn’t look like one, he would love to be a gardener and dreams of harvesting all of our veggies out of our back yard, he loves to bike and gets me out often riding beside him but best of all, he loves me. My grandfather once told me that every day I look at my husband there should be a sparkle in my eye and just a little more love than there was the last time, I hope that I do that each time I see him. Next is being a mom to 2 great boys. I always wanted boys, I love the way they are ‘just boys’ I will tell you more about them as we move forward. I am a daughter and a sister and a friend and as I tell my story I hope that you are able to learn who I really am.
Today I am thankful that I can see the sunshine against the trees outside and see that spring is coming.